How to stay warm in the dead of autumn’s chill.

And these thoughts of cold chills and cool weather beg the heart to dig beyond the surface and into the deep where honest feelings hibernate—is there anything inside the heart right now that chills the bones as much as autumn’s wind?

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Sang Like An Angel, Screamed Like A Demon

I remember back in high school when I wore oversized hoodies, dyed my hair black, and had Vans slip-ons with the teal cross stitching. I thought I was hardcore because I listened to Avril Lavigne and Relient K. But I wasn’t really hardcore—just weepy and wimpy. Until I graduated to the good stuff: Evanescence, Hoobastank, System of a Down, Staind, Breaking Benjamin, Linkin…

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When all you feel is darkness & all you want is a bullet to the brain to make the pain go away

I have a cousin, who is more like a brother, who took his life 163 days ago. The wound is fresh. Even the grammar of it hurts—do I say have a cousin or had. His memory haunts, leaves me tormented by daydreams I force upon myself—the reels of horror that replay in the mind when I think about…

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