Sang Like An Angel, Screamed Like A Demon

Linkin Park, Hybrid Theory, One More Light, Chester Bennington, Mike Shinoda

I remember back in high school when I wore oversized hoodies, dyed my hair black, and had Vans slip-ons with the teal cross stitching. I thought I was hardcore because I listened to Avril Lavigne and Relient K. But I wasn't really hardcore—just weepy and wimpy. Until I graduated to the good stuff: Evanescence, Hoobastank, System of a Down, Staind, Breaking Benjamin, Linkin …

When all you feel is darkness & all you want is a bullet to the brain to make the pain go away

I have a cousin, who is more like a brother, who took his life 163 days ago. The wound is fresh. Even the grammar of it hurts—do I say have a cousin or had. His memory haunts, leaves me tormented by daydreams I force upon myself—the reels of horror that replay in the mind when I think about …

When You’re Postpartum & The Only Thing Bouncing Back Is Belly

What we need is for the pregnancy, maternity, postpartum, and motherhood journey to not be centered around how good we can make it look or how strong we can look while doing it or how perfect, or how darling, or how flawless, or how fit we can be through it. What we need is for the focus to be put back on birth of a breathing baby, flailing and kicking for love in a bright and noisy world...